Let's see. I got the nasty respiratory infection that was going around. I was sick almost 3 weeks. I lost my job. I am still trying to get my lungs healed up and strengthened. I am meeting with an AVON rep on Thursday to start selling AVON as a side source of income. I registered for classes to get my Bachelors degree online in Computer Crime/Computer Forensics. Basically it will be a Criminal Justice major with major aspects of Business and Computers. Classes start Feb 24. I will be taking Introduction to the Criminal Justice System and Art and Humanities: Twentieth Century and Beyond. Looking forward to the CJ course, not so much on the Humanities, but luckily the majority of what I will have to take after this is related to my degree and not core stuff. I am also studying for the A+ certification exam.
Things are going great with John. I am so lucky to have him in my life. He is my Imzadi.
I have so much I need to do and I am just not getting it done as I was hoping. Good news though. Russ's mom sold me her portable dishwasher and after a major blonde moment with the adapter it is able to be hooked up. Now I just need detergent. Yay for dishwashing getting much easier and now having another work area.
My Family Christmas is this Sunday. I am taking spinach dip (just the traditional knorr), white chocolate fudge (satsuma zest, white chocolate, condensed milk, toasted almonds, dried cranberries), and broccoli salad. The salad is a hybrid between the one I am used to and the one John is used to. The one I am used to is broccoli, red onions, raisins and bacon bits in a mayo/sugar/apple cider vinegar dressing. The one he is used to is broccoli, cherry tomatoes and shredded cheddar in the same type dressing. I combined the two and left out the raisins. It came out really good.
I am making homemade goodies to give people as well. In addition to the previously mentioned fudge I am hoping to make date balls, double chocolate walnut biscotti, oreo balls, marshmallows, haystacks (butterscotch and chowmein noodles), forgotten cookies, rum balls and pistachio nougat. If the weather cooperates I may make divinity but really I think I am making more than enough sweets hehe.
John is on the road and I am missing him. I know he will be home tomorrow and I am so looking forward to it. I think we are gonna hang out with his family on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. I am not sure. Either way I have both days off so I am game for whatever. I am looking forward to Christmas this year. I can't wait to give John his present. I know he isn't expecting it, but I am equally sure he will really like it. He *better* hehe. I was torn on whether to go for it or not and decided what the heck.
In other news I am getting a tattoo. Jake is going to help me come up with a phoenix design I like and I am getting it on my left upper arm. It is to symbolize my healing and journey toward self acceptance. It is also going to not only cover the scars on my arm, but he is going to come up with a way to use them in the design to add even more depth and meaning.
On the 12th we went to Jake's wife Amy's graduation. It was a rainy day but we had fun. We all ate at Atlas in p-cola. The food was great and extra bonus points for the presentation. It just would have been a good time for me to suddenly love seafood.
Harry has gotten me hooked on Mafia Wars on Facebook.
Ever since Diva mentioned it on SoThere, I have been following the blog of a brave woman named Lisa who has been fighting cancer. Sadly she is now in the final, final stages. I am hoping for a sense of peace to pass over her and her family. I can’t imagine what they are going through.
Infection cleared up and no surgeon. Yay! The scary part is the ER bill I got yesterday for $567.
I am working off and on on my site http://www.healing-within.net. I changed the look a bit and put stuff on the ‘About Me’ section. I have to research resources and then I will actually have a helpful site.
I really hate when people I love and/or care about are going through a lot or are sick and I am far away and feel helpless to do anything. *sigh*
Right now I am really wishing for a good night’s sleep. Last night was semi-better. I actually slept straight through 3 hours, and probably would have longer if Shadow hadn’t decided to get yappy. I got more than 3 hrs sleep, it’s just 3 hrs is the longest I slept at one time.
Absolutely awful at writing in my blog. I don’t know why exactly. I have some food stuff I have been meaning to add. I just .. meh. Things are going on and I guess I am holding them close to me, good and bad. I think this is going to be a skimpy Christmas, but the gifts I do give will be coming straight from the heart.
I’ve been more social in WoW and have made some new friends. It feels good to feel free to talk to people and help people without worry of snippy remarks. I have put in way more hours than I should lately just because it is nice to be able to do whatever I want.
I have been steady losing weight, which makes me very happy. I have added Hydroxycut to the mix just to try to jump start my metabolism a bit. I am not taking the full dose though, staying at the starting dose because I don’t want my blood pressure to rocket up. Being skinny won’t do me a lick of good if I give myself a stroke or heart attack. Phil sent me a bottle to try to see how I did with it.
If I ever manage to find my $50 rebate visa card I am getting my hair cut…short. The place I am going does personal consultations and customizes based on hair type and bone structure. I want something short, low to no maintenance apart from getting it cut, that emphasizes my eyes and doesn’t make me look like a boy. I am thinking pixie cut short.
Been a lot going on behind the scenes. Not going into all that yet.
WoW-wise I have been doing PvP and helping Dan on his hunter and then Dan with his Priest and Rugal with his Warlock that they play together. Hard to believe they are getting close to being ready for Outlands. I almost have all my marks. I think I need 35 more Alterac and I’ll have the 90 I need. Honorwise I still need like 60 some thousand. But once I get my marks I am just gonna do the battlegrounds I really like. I will admit Alterac is growing on me. I like it when it goes smooth but hate when there’s like 10 afk people on our side. Or all but 2 people on offense or defense.
I am going to get Lumi in a different guild. I love Kamikaze Runners but no one is ever on. I understand they have other stuff going on, I just would like Lumi to be in a guild where I can help people and so if I need another person for an instance it isn’t a matter of “Do you have any tanks/DPS from your guild on we can get to help?” *me checking guild tab* “Uhm no, I am the only one on.” Dan’s main is guildless at the moment so we are gonna find a good one for both of us to join together.
Dan awesomely helped me last night. He helped me work on Argent Dawn rep (such a GRIND) and helped me get the Crusader weapon enchant. I thought it would take forever to get, but it took like 16 minutes with his help.
Other than the stuff I don’t feel like talking about there isn’t much going on. Oh my bike should be here this week. So then I am gonna start biking the 3 miles to work.
I wish I could eat anything other than soup without it feeling like it turned into a lead ball in my stomach. Haven’t posted lately it’s been a rough few days. Hopefully things settle soon. Keeping an eye on the storms in the Atlantic, Ike may be a problem a week or more from now. Not sure about Josephine.
I feel like I am constantly on the verge of an anxiety attack and today just has this very surreal feeling like everything is slightly off kilter or out of synch.
Most of my birthday money went towards bills but Russ’s mom gave me 20 and said I was not allowed to use it on bills. I bought Daughtry’s self titled CD with it. Russ bought me OneRepublic’s album Dreaming Out Loud. I also used $20 and bought 4 cds off Amazon. Sum 41 – Chuck, Stereofuse – All that Remains, Stereofuse – Stereofuse and CrashBox – CrashBox. I also eventually want Benny Benassi – …Phobia and Hypnotica as well as some of Default’s albums.
OneRepublic is easily becoming one of my favorite groups. Their sound is so varied. Right now their song All Fall Down is on. I love the rhythm of it.
Pieces was my favorite song by Sum 41, but after getting the album I like almost all the songs a lot.
My mood is a little better today. Probably because it is Saturday. Still tired though.
When we went to the store yesterday to get stuff for dinner I spotted these “Dove Desserts: Tiramisu Silky Smooth Dark Chocolate Promises”. I am a Tiramisu fanatic even though I don’t let myself have it that often. So I splurged and got them.
I do love Dove Dark Chocolate. It is so smooth and yummy and has an awesome mouth feel, BUT they kinda messed up on the Tiramisu bit. Not that these taste bad, but it is not Tiramisu. Tiramisu is light and fluffy and tastes of cream, Mascarpone cheese, rum, coffee and chocolate with ladyfingers or sponge cake. These chocolates of course taste of chocolate, and also coffee and almost a buttered rum. They also used caramel instead of a cream filling. So, I like them but they will not stave off a Tiramisu craving.
All Dove Promises have these little sayings on the inside of the wrapper. Since I am having an identity crisis I paid closer attention to these than usual. In the 24 hrs since I bought these I have had 5. In order here are the messages I have gotten:
It seems the popped capacitor wasn’t the only issue WIndows had. Even with Russ’s card (same type video card) it did the 4 bit crap. So maybe the AGP slot is flaking out.
It works in Ubuntu…popped capacitor and all…I can play WoW and since I found a plugin for Pidgin that lets me log on to XFire I can still talk to Dan. SO I am happy about that.
Now if only Dan would get a break >.< It sucks when you care about someone so much and they just keep having bad day after bad day on top of not being able to sleep. And I can’t do a damn thing to help :<
I always get introspective on my birthday. Years keep marching by and I feel like I am not accomplishing a damn thing. I want so bad out of this rut, but for now I am stuck. Every year I say the next birthday will be different. One day….
It is already Sunday afternoon. I am not ready for the weekend to be over. I have been playing WoW and spring cleaned a bit. I deleted 2 characters I made but ended up not liking their names. This is the list for the SoE realm (all are Female):
Lumine – 51 Blood Elf Fire Mage – Tailoring/Enchanting
I had a week off, things have settled a bit. I feel better. Russ’s mom meets with the pulmonary doctor today about her MRSA pneumonia. I realllly wanted to go but we would have had to leave an hour after I got to work and I can’t afford losing that much of a day.
Today I am tired. The phone kept ringing off the hook this morning. As a side note…never ever EVER do an online quote for health insurance unless it is through an official carrier like Blue Cross & Blue Shield. Thank goodness for caller ID.
We mailed out tax papers to the IRS. At this rate I may get my money by the end of the year.
My birthday is coming up. I have no idea what I want. Well there are lots of things I want, it is just a matter of finding a place to put them or having the money to buy them. I have to make a list. I hate trying to come up with a list lol.
We went to Pensacola today and I stopped at the International Market. I know what I am eating the next few days: Hummus, Tabbouleh and Naan. I also bought some spring roll wrappers and I am going to make cold spring rolls. I just have to find a good recipe for using Thai style wheat flour wrappers.
I am sooo glad for the weekend to be here. I always say I am going to catch up on my sleep but I never do lol. I have no clue what we are going to do this weekend. I know we want to take Russ’s mom to the Diner we discovered in Pensacola. They had good food. It tasted like everything down to the ranch dressing was homemade.
Russ just told me that he just read “In the United States, Chevron pocketed an average of $87 per barrel for crude oil and natural gas liquids sold in the first quarter, more than doubling from $37 per barrel last year.” OK I understand oil is something we have a finite supply of and as demand continues to increase the price is going to go up. However, that just sounds obscene! Oil is currently $112 per barrel. That $87 is 77.7% of the cost per barrel.
Something HAS to give. We have got to really work at finding and using alternative sources of energy. Of course for those sources to be widely adapted, they will have to be affordable. That is one the major kickers. I’d love to set up solar panels to offset some of the electricity we use, but they are expensive. It was 3 months ago we went car shopping. I would have loved to get some kind of hybrid that got wonderful gas mileage, but they cost so much more.
The US, especially rural areas, needs a much better public transportation system. The fewer cars on the road, the less fuel used. I know our area is not very pedestrian/bike friendly. There are a few sidewalks and they even put in a walking/bike path in down Fort Morgan Road. The brain dead thing is that path is off the road, behind trees in a lot of cases, and it is not lit. So at night there are still bikers/walkers that are riding/walking right on the side of the road. We have come close to hitting some of them.
Trying the blog thing again >.< I sorta suck at it because I hate having to log in and all that (yeah yeah I am lazy..). We found some promising blogging packages in Linux so I am gonna give them a go.
More than anything today I am puzzled by my friends. At least I thought they were my friends. It seems like lately I keep getting shoved into the role of "I’ll talk to you when and if I need you…otherwise forget it" This isn’t counting my forum friends…it’s mostly real life friends and online friends from a few years back.
Part of the fault may be mine, I dropped off the planet when Russ’s mom got diagnosed with cancer. BUT I don’t consider it fair that the only way I hear from them is if I initiate contact. I am reaching the point where I am going to assume if I don’t hear from someone on their own prerogative at least some of the time that they have no interest in being friends anymore. I am just tired of this.
The only exception is Abigail. She and I may go months w/o touching base but when we do it is like nothing has changed. I know she is busy and she is like me and thinks about contacting someone at times where it isn’t an option. Plus we do have plans to go see Prince Caspian next month.
